Wednesday, April 20, 2016

High Def Vision

The chorus to the song, Day To Feel Alive, is this:
Oh, oh-oh, oh, oh-oh Oh-oh, what a day to feel alive Oh, oh-oh, oh, oh-oh Oh-oh, what a day to feel alive
This is one of my songs from my "kitchen playlist", which I listen to as I do kitchen work. The problem is I usually end up dancing around my kitchen rather than taking care of the task at hand.  I’ve even shut the stove off to allow the physical side of me to express my “aliveness”.

Never in my whole life had I ever felt so alive as I do now.  Alive with the “abundant life” Jesus came to give us.  I’ve read John 10:10 a gazillion times, taught on it countless times.  And I always had this twinge inside me, “But, I don’t think I’ve ever experienced it, LORD”. 

Now I know “abundant life” is a state of being.  It’s being exactly where God wants you, doing what He has called you to do, allowing Him to heal and set you free, which produces an exuberant joy.  

Never, in my wildest dreams, could I have imagined me being like this two years ago after the shock of finding out about my husband’s secret sinful life. 

Never did I imagine, as God separated me out of this unholy alliance, that it would produce such freedom to be who I was created to be. 

Never did I imagine that the gifts of The LORD, that used to operate through me, would be back with such anointing.   

Never did I imagine that I could see, literally - I’m talking literally - in HD.  Everything in life is now so bright and perfectly clear; focused with such clarity that it is as if I had been blind my whole life and now I see colors for the first time.  

Another “kitchen” song’s chorus is:
So tell me I’m dreaming (Oh woah) Cause’ I can’t hold back these tears I cry And you (but I sing “I”) never looked more beautiful tonight (Oh woah) So if I’m dreaming (Oh woah) Don’t wake me up, I’m so alive Wish you could see what I see through these eyes of mine~ Chorus to Beautiful Tonight by Westlife

Thank You, Abba, for separating me from the unholy alliance we had become.  Thank you for releasing me from his passive-egressive, strong Type A personality that he was so proud of being.  Thank You, that in the midst of those dark, dark days of finding out truth, You already saw this day, this time, this place which You would have me in.  When all I could see was devastation and ashes, You saw beauty.  The beauty of abundant life that awaited me.  The beauty of being who I was created to be now that the strong Type A personality no longer has me suppressed.  Thank You, Abba, that now I am free to laugh freely, love intensely, hug deeply, and to dance around my kitchen.  All because You have brought me back to Life - to Your abundant Life.  Thank You for giving me clarity in seeing "through these eyes of mine".  I must now be seeing as You see…thank You, my Father.  Thank You!  I bow before You in gratitude.

Because of Him and Unto Him,

Monday, April 18, 2016

i am Within The I Am

met a Man.  His Name is Jesus.  He changed my life.

His Humanness my aspiration.
His God-ness my strength.

strength to have braved the dark
aspiration to be more like Him

i know a Man.  His Name is Jesus.  He is my personal self-improvement guru.

improve myself, I allow Him to do
my aspiration and strength lead me to

i am intimate with a Man.  His Name is Jesus.  He is constantly doing math within me.

adding abundant life - Love, Peace, Joy
subtracting the negatives of the inner man of my heart
multiplying Agape in and through me
dividing the bad and ugly resulting in the good

i am one with a Man.  His Name is Jesus.
He prayed that I would be One with our
    Father as He is One with Him

tightly abiding in Him
listening, hearing, I know His Voice
having Wisdom and knowledge of His Word
having deep, fulfilling intimacy with the One Who gave His Life for me

i am within The I AM.
The I AM within me.
We are One.

Because of Him and Unto Him,

Tuesday, April 12, 2016

Do You Take Love In Your Coffee?

Love conquers all.  That was my thought as my landlord walked away from my front door.  As I closed the door behind him, I looked Heavenward and said out loud, “Agape conquers all.  Thank You, LORD!"

Surely, Love never fails.

I had a cesspool back-flow into the basement the day before Easter.  Four days later, my landlord still hadn’t taken care of the problem.  All he did was shut my water off.  So, I went ahead and called in a cesspool company.  My landlord went ballistic, refusing to pay the bill because he hadn’t authorized it. Days later, through a not so kind text, he told me he wanted me to leave.

I’ve been renting from this man for 13 months now and I had already come to the conclusion he wasn’t a very nice man.  Now, my opinion was he was a slumlord.  However, I always treated him with a smile, kindness, dignity, and respect.  I didn’t argue. I didn’t threaten to sue (as Christian friends were advising me to do). I kept quiet.  When he sent nasty texts, I did not respond in kind. 

And so my diligent hunt for a new home to rent ensued.  But, I was keenly aware within my spirit that God wanted to deal with this man’s heart.  I told The LORD that my money wasn’t mine, but His and if it cost $3,000 to have this man see Jesus through me, then it was worth it.  That was my objective.  For him to see Jesus Christ in me through this whole ordeal. After all, I am a professing "Christian". 

The short of the long story is this:  Through the real estate lady who showed me this house to rent, he sent a message: He did not want me to leave, but he did not understand what he did wrong. Would I be willing to meet with him, along with the real estate woman?  My reply to her was, “Of course.”  The appointment was set for yesterday morning at 9 AM.  Friends again told me to “stick to my guns”; “demand he pay the $3,000 or you will take him to court”; “you need to move out regardless of the outcome”, etc.

Nope.  That is not who I am.  Love, Himself, lives within me and Love is kind…isn’t it?  Isn't He?

At church the day before, my Pastor’s message completely confirmed my heart attitude about the whole situation.  I stood up and testified to that fact.

Monday 8:45 AM  I set the table for three.  For coffee.  
8:50 AM  The real estate woman arrived.  I poured our coffees.
9:00 AM  The landlord arrives.  

I met him with an open door and a smile as he walked up the walk.  As he stepped into my living room, I extended my hand and said, "Welcome.  Would you join me in a cup of coffee?"

My question seemed to momentarily shock him as he stammered his response.  “Umm...cou...ffee?, that would be great.”

I asked him to sit at the table and I poured his coffee.  As I placed his cup in front of him, he looked up at me and asked, “Can I have a hug?”  

Love had met him at the door.
Love served him coffee.
Love hugged him.  Tightly.  

From that point on, I didn’t need to say a word.  He apologized and did all the talking.  When our convo was finished, I walked him to the front door.  He turned and once again asked if he could have a hug.  

Love tightly embraced him once again.  He didn't break the embrace. I finally did.  His soul was wrapped in the Arms of Love and Love was having His Way with him.

He walked down the stoop, turned back toward me and paused. “Thank you."  He didn't realize it, but he was actually thanking The LORD. 

I know he was embraced by Jesus - Love Himself - in my little home over a cup of coffee.  Surely, Love never fails! 

Because of Him and Unto Him,  

Monday, April 4, 2016

Finger's "Face-lift"  If you’ve never shopped Etsy, you are missing something special.  From this site, I buy all my gift-giving items. 

I decided to shop for myself. I wanted to find a ring to replace my retired-wife rings. But, not just a ring that was nice and I liked.  No. I wanted one that would hold a special meaning for me - just as my marital rings once did.

So, I started "window shopping" on Etsy.  I found the ring and it was hand-made for me by a jeweler in Israel.  (Israel!  Oh, my heart….)  But, I didn’t realize that the shop owner was Israeli when the ring first came to my attention.  I was drawn to it, like a moth to a light.  I studied it, read the details about it, and prayed about it.  I kept coming back to it and over time I finally decided to order it.  Only then, did I realize the shop was in Israel. 

It is white gold bearing tiny rubies in the shape of a “v”.  It is a small, petite ring. Simple. Unobtrusive. Knowing my relationship with Abba, I knew it had to mean something significant.  So, I began my research.  

The letter “v” (vav) in Hebrew has a few meanings. Two of which are “The Shekinah Glory of Jehovah", and "who was born a man”.  

The Shekinah Glory of Jehovah Who was born a

The word “shekinah” does not exist in Scripture. However, its concept does.  Shekinah means: He caused to dwell; Divine Presence.  

The Divine Presence of God Almighty, Jesus Christ, is not some sort of hovering, up-in-the-sky, non-personal deity.  No, He dwells within.  His Divine Presence is within me - not out there beyond the moon and the stars, somewhere. No. He orders and directs my life from within me. His still small Voice is heard within my being. His Word is deep within my heart - dwelling within me. 

And The Divine Presence of God Almighty, Jesus Christ, is my Husband as well as my Saviour and Lord:
For your Maker is your Husband, The Lord of hosts is His Name ~ Isa. 54:5
And has been since the day I first read this Scripture some 30 years ago.  So, this is my new marriage band.  I may be a retired wife in the natural, but not so in the spiritual!  My beloved Husband, my Maker, is with me never to abandon me. He will be by my side as I grow old(er) loving on me, providing for me, and taking good care of me just as He has always done.  

And now I have an additional covenant ring. A gift from my Beloved. A ring symbolizing His fidelity to me, and a reminder of my value - my "worth is far above rubies"!

Oh, how blessed I am and how special my ring is!

Because of Him and Unto Him,