After walking hand-in-hand (literally) with my husband for 42 years of my life, the word
S - I - N - G - L - E
has had a very scary connotation to it.
Single means ALONE....ahhhh!
OK, Diane, let's put this in perspective:
My other half is a workaholic who never took vacations or sick days; who worked 'till 10:30 PM, 6 days a week for all of my children's upbringing years. Thereafter, 8:30 PM, 6 days a week. Until the last year, when he was forced by partners or paramour (not sure which - probably both) to take Saturday's off. Same schedule, but now 5 days a week. All my years of asking/imploring for a Saturday here and there fell on deaf ears.
I raised our children. ALONE.
Took care of the homefront. ALONE.
Took care of every household emergency. ALONE.
Took care of all the finances. ALONE.
Stood in the gap for the family. ALONE.
Went through major family and health crises'. ALONE.
Ate 40 years worth of dinners. ALONE.
Married. Yet, ALONE.
Married, yet single in regard to doing things ALONE.
I did everything ALONE except take vacations.
So, Diane...what is the problem?
You can do this!
Remember your singleness of 40 years. Don't believe the lies that you can't do this. You have been doing it - for all of your adult life.
So, as this year draws to a close, my new OneWord365 for 2015 is going to be:
I'm going to embrace my singleness. ALONE.
I'm going to come out of the foxhole. ALONE.
Travel has always been a desire of mine. And I'm going to dare to travel. ALONE. (I'm already planning a trip in the spring to Texas to meet precious, Martha, my first blogging friend. And I might just plan other trips to the others in my Circle, if I'm welcomed.)
And I just might venture out to eat in a restuarant, ALONE, which has been one of the most scariest things to me. Although, I don't know why. I've been eating ALONE for 40 years.
And, Diane, single is NOT a status. It's just a word. An adjective. A word that describes a person who is strong enough to enjoy life ALONE.
And I have my Beloved LORD by my side. Who could ask for more? He will be my dinner Companion, my travel Companion, my singleness Companion. Single, but NOT ALONE.
He is The One Who will endue me with power so that I may enjoy life. ALONE. After all, He has given me 40 years of preparation for this season of my life. And for that I'm grateful.
I think I've already started to embrace it! 2015 here I come.
Because of Him and Unto Him,